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so its been a while, huh?

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chances are my current watchers wouldve probably forgotten about me considering the fact that i quit dA in 2018


but if you do remember, hi im faith. i used to go by dae on this account years ago but since then I've changed my name several times. faith is my new preferred name and i do not wish for anyone to refer to my by any of my old aliases or names.




so, what's this journal about? am i returning to deviantart after all these years?


one. No, i'm not. i'll probably login once in a while to get clip studio brushes and the like, but i still won't post anything. i'm just making a journal because i sorta? miss the old times and i enjoy looking back on the times before i quit, even if old me makes myself cringe.


i've moved fandoms a lot. from my time in the edm fandom, then being part of the animation meme community, getting myself into anime and being part of the bungou stray dogs fandom, etc. as cringy as my old shit is i do look back on my fandom-hopping journey fondly.


currently im chilling in the argonavis aaside and helios rising heroes fandom, not as big as other anime game fanbases but i enjoy being an active fanartist in those fandoms.


so yeah, just dropping by to check in on everything! nothing big just felt a lil nostalgic about everything.


on a not so happy note i've retired my shikkakyuu handle. too much bad memories and stuff associated with that handle, i don't wanna get into the nitty gritty details but i made said alias in my old weeb days and. Yikes thats embarassing lol


furthermore if anyone wants to see how i'm doing or newer pieces of artwork i've been drawing, I've been posting art on my twitter https://twitter.com/histoiris/ my main twt acc is also listed in my art account's bio if you wanna see me absolutely lose it over my horrible gacha luck. (and yes my new handle is histoiris)


overall it was nice looking back on the past!


thank you everyone for supporting me through thick and thin, and even if only a few people or no one reads this journal i'm happy to have written this all and having talked about how i'm doing in the present.

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leaving

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hey um 

long time no see


i bet youre all wondering why i left for such a long time


well, i just. didnt want to be here anymore.
deviantart gave me lots of bad memories and made me have trust issues for the longest time and i cant take it anymore.

im just really tired.


ive also been insanely busy with schoo and my portfolio for art school, plus my family's going through an economic crisis and i might need to find a part time job somewhere


im really sorry if i let you guys down.


dont expect me to come back to deviantart. im not deactivating this, since i dont want to erase my past work. i'll just abandon this account.


if you want to see my art, please consider visiting my instagram (shikkakyuu), im waaaay more active there.



im sorry
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day 14. im in elmo's basement. he wants it hard.

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○romantic orientation?: demiromantic
○ sexual orientation?: pansexual
○ your gender: ftm/trans male

[do you like . . .]

◌ small hugs?: yes
◌ big hugs?: YES
◌ lip kisses?: only if its from my s/o
◌ cheek kisses?: ONLY!! IF ITS!! MY DATEFRIEND!!
◌ neck kisses?: uhh my neck is sensitive so no
◌ forehead kisses?: yes
◌ making out?: only if my datefriend is ok with it,,,if they are then i dont mind lol 
◌ cuddling?: YES
◌ spooning?: depends. anyways im the big spoon. its unavoidable
◌ holding hands?: !!yes
◌ nose booping?: aaaaaaa idk
◌ tracing circles?: thats. that. that would tickle
◌ being carried?: NO im heavy asf
◌ carrying others?: ill try
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○ do you have a crush?: Im dating them rn!! aurel aka lux in ur reading this ily

○ are you in any kind of relationship?: YES!!! im lov them

○ do you want any kind of relationship?: uhh im happy rn??? we're both going to meet irl in an anime convention this year in jakarta so!! everything!!! is good!!

○ have you been kissed before?: NO haha

○ would you want your partner to be taller or shorter than you?: i dont care abt height

○ what's your dream date?: playing video games or watching weird shit on YT,,while cuddling,,,,and eventually!!! falling asleep together!!! god hit me w that soft shit

○ have you ever confessed to a crush?: YES ive confessed to them back in may and!!! it was p awkward and we ended up dating!!

○ are you open to a poly relationship?: im not into poly realtionships sorry,,,,but hey if any of you are then i wont judge its your preference my dudes ^w^

○ do you have a fb crush?: WHO STILL USES FACEBOOK LMAO

○ what is one thing that always makes you blush?: WHEN LUX LAUGHS DURING VOICE CALLS THEIR LAUGH IS SO CUTE I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

○ what's your fave petname?: i have weird petnames for lux,,,,i call them shit like B, bab, peepeeman,,,uhhhhhhhhhhhhh luis fonsi,,,, yeah we have a weird relationship but i love them

○ stargazing or a city skyline?: star!!gazing!!! and by star gazing i mean looking at love live all stars previews together bc we're both lovelive trash
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harry potter hates ohio

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1. Do you snore?
no

2. Are you a lover or a fighter?
shitter

3. What’s your worst fear?
amphibians

4. As a kid, where you a lego maniac?
yeah i liked putting legos in people's shoes

5. What do you think of “reality” tv?
idk,,does rupauls drag race count as reality bc i rlly like it,,i think it does,,,anyways im eh

6. Do you chew on your straws?
YES BITCH

7. Were you a cute baby?
ugl

8. Is the single life for you?
no lol,,,,i have a datefrien

9. What colour is your keyboard?
black

10. Do your sing in the shower?
YES

11. Have you ever sky-dived before?
NO I HATE HEIGHTS

12. Any secret talents?
i can pee with the lights on

13. What’s your ideal vacation spot?
6 feet under and in a coffin

14. Can you swim?
yes

16. Have you seen the movie "Donnie Darko”?
no wha t

17. Do you care about the ozone?
i care about frozone

18. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop?
1

19. Can you sing the alphabet backwards?
what kind of question is this

20. Have you ever been on an airplane?
yes. many times. i dont like it

21. Are you a single child?
yeah

22. Do you prefer electronic or manual pencil sharpeners?
electronic

23. What’s your stand on hunting?
as long as you dont overdo it, hunt whatever you want. just dont let a species go extinct. idk man we dont hunt in jakarta

24. Is marriage in your future?
nah i dont really like the idea of marriage,,,just a long lasting relationship works for me

25. Do you like your handwriting?
NO

26. What are you allergic to?
crabs, pollen, dust

27. When was the last time you said 'I love you?'
JUST LAST NIGHT TO MY DATEFRIEND
ILYSM LUX
OOPS I SAID IT AGAIN

28. Is Tupac still alive?
yes

29. Do you cry at weddings?
no

30. How do you like your eggs?
raw

31. Are blondes dumb?
they cant be dumber than i am

32. Where does the other sock end up?
up my a

33. What time is it?
bone time

34. Do you have a nickname?
kal, kay

35. Is McDonald's disgusting?
depends lol

36. When was the last time you were in a car?
2 days ago,,,,yikes

37. Do you prefer baths or showers?
showe r s

38. Is Santa Claus real?
no bitch

39. Do you like having you neck kissed?
im a lowkey kinky binch so yeah

40. Are you afraid of the dark?
YES

41. What are you addicted to?
reading a fic about a HEALTHY, SUPPORTIVE, LONG-TERM RELATIONSHIP

42. Crunchy or creamy peanut butter?
crönch

43. Can you crack your neck?
no what the fuc k

44. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
no, but id like to

45. How many times have you brushed your teeth today?
;^)

46. Is drug free the way to be?
id hit that bong but possession of drugs can warrant a death sentence in indonesia ;^(

47. Are you a heavy sleeper?
50/50

48. What colour are your eyes?
brown

50. Do you like your life?
no

51. Who’s better: Stone Cold or The Rock?
pee

52. Are you psychic
psychic fire minna minna go atamannaka pica picaresque abunai koi ga shitai karada ga biri biri eeee (bi bibi bi bibi bi)

53. Have you read "Catcher in the Rye"?
no i dont read books

54. Do you play any instruments?
guitar but i dont play it anymore??? i mostly sing now

55. Have you ever stolen money?
yeah

56. Can you snowboard?
nopeeee

57. Do you like camping?
I WENT CAMPING 2 MONTHS AGO AND I HATED IT THERES SO MUCH LEECHES AND MY TENT WAS LEAKING

58. Do you snort when you laugh?
yeah

59. Do you believe in magic?
kinda????

60. Are dogs a man’s best friend?
i have a dog so im obligated to say yes

61. You believe in divorce?
um

62. Can you do the moonwalk?
NO I CNAT DAN CE

63. Do you make a lot of mistakes?
being alive is a mistake 

64. Is it cold outside today?
no its july, i live in a tropical country.

65. What was the last thing you ate?
hash browns

66. Do you wear nail polish?
no

67. Have you ever been kissed?.
on the cheek by my friend yeah

68. What's the most annoying TV commercial?
the indonesian supermarket ad where the mom gets stressed bc her kid shuts up and like this woman appears out of nowhere and shes like "all prices are 50% off" its so weird

69. Do you shop at American Eagle?
no

70. Favourite song at the moment?
un:c's plus danshi cover

71. Do you like your job?
WHAT JOB LMAO

72. Do you like your classes in school?
im moving schools and i get to pick out my lessons so i guess so

73. How do you like your meat cooked?
burnt

74. Do you like these surveys.
fuck off janet

75. Do you know how to tag three peoples?
fuck off janet

BONUS!
76. Why did the Chicken Cross the road?
because the chicken knows i have a fucking glock and god knows i aint afraid to use this muffuckin bad bitch 
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soy

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1. what’s your gender? 
- trans male

2. what are your pronouns?
- he/him or they/them

3. is your family accepting?
-  no

4. what do you wish you could tell your past self?
- "you dont need to pretend to be a girl just to make mom happy"

5. what is your sexuality?
- pansexual

6. favorite color?
- pink

7. sun gay or moon gay?
- star gay

8. when did you find out your sexuality?
- ahh around 2 months ago

9. how was your day?
- not that bad (yet)

10. do you have any gay friends?
- alot

11. what’s your favorite hobby?
- sleeping

12. who’s the best gay icon in your opinion?
- honestly idk wwww

maybe gigaP since he has said that he's gay but idk if he's officially recognized as a gay icon

13. which pride flags do you like the most design/color wise?
- pan flag, trans flag, bi flag

14. are you openly out?
- im closeted irl but im out online

15. are you comfortable with yourself?
- a little???? i havent had hrt or gotten a binder yet but my close irl friends support me for being trans so yeah its good

16. bottom or top?
- power bottom

17. femme or butch?
- femme, probably

18. do you bind?
- not yet

19. do you shave?
- only my legs. i like my arm hair

20. if you could date anyone you wanted, who would it be?
- im already dating lux lol

21. do you have a partner (s)?
- yes

22. describe your partner (s)?
- they're a little shit who keeps sending me memes on LINE but i love them so much theyre so sweet and cute and nice

23. have you ever dated anyone of the same sex?
- yeah

24. anyone of another sex?
- yup

25. pastel gay or goth gay?
- pastel goth gay

26. favorite dad in dream daddies?
- CRAIG

27. tell me a random fact about yourself?
- im always sleepy

28. do you own any pride flags/merch?
- no 

29. have you ever been to a pride parade?
- no

30. any advice to someone who isn’t out or who is exploring themselves?
everything will be ok! just be yourselves!!
if you are scared of coming out to your family because of your religious background or some other condition, try to meet some people online that are supportive of your identity! you are all!!! valid!!!

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